YOU ARE NOT ALONE..!! MICHAEL JACKSON

"You Are Not Alone"
Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go

And leave my world so cold
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away

I am here to stay
But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone'

Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that
I'll be thereI'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

OH IBU..new sakha..(my favourite song)

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Air wuduk s’lalu membasahimu
Ayat suci slalu di kumandangkan
Suara mu penuh keluh dan kesah
Berdoa untuk putera puterinya


Oh ibuku engkaulah wanita
Yang ku cinta selama hidupku
Maafkan anakmu bila ada salah
Pengorbananmu tanpa balas jasa



Air wuduk s’lalu membasahimu
Ayat suci slalu di kumandangkan
Suara mu penuh keluh dan kesah
Berdoa untuk putera puterinya



Oh ibuku engkaulah wanita
Yang ku cinta selama hidupku
Maafkan anakmu bila ada salah
Pengorbananmu tanpa balas jasa



Ya Allah ampuni dosanya
Sayangilah seperti menyayangiku
Berilah ia kebahagiaan di dunia juga di akhirat

..the DIOR kiss..

assalamualaikum..

sy rase nk share story ni dgn korang semua..
coz sy rase crite ni myntuh hati sesiapa yg membacanya..
ia x ada kena mengena dlm khidupan sy..
tapi,crite ni berkaitan dgn seseorng yg ade kena mengena dlm hidup sy..
x pelah.. asalkan sy bahagia.. hehe2.

MY mum grew in tradisional CHinese family where open expressions of love
were never encouraged.. When she had me and my three siblings, she treated us with the same hard hand.. It was not that she was a slave driver or nothing, but she never openly
showed affection.. Instead, she demonstrated that she cared in more practical ways.......

My parents couldn't have been more different emotionally.. My dad is really open-hearted person who constantly showers us with hugs and kisses no matter the occasion.. After much persuasion from my dad, my mother did try to change, but it was clear that she never felt quite right expressing her emotions.. Eventually she reverted to her old self..

The differences between my parents was never more stark than during during the times I brought home a very good results from school... My dad would practically jump for joy, offering warm and effectionate words of congratulations.. And my mother?
"Ah,good,good," she would typically say witha tense smile etched on her face. "dO better next time, OK,??"..

I tried not to hold a grudge against her for being so reserved.. That was just her in way, I reasoned..

It was the kisse that we children secretly yearned for.. We received a peck on the cheek from her once a year on Chinese New Year when gave us ang-pow.. I can remember the kisses, awkward and wet, from her DIOR lipstick.. We would rub the smudge on our cheek,trying to look disgusted but secretly glad to get once-in-a-blue-moon kiss from our mum..

Last year, I was called for an entrance interview at a private medical university in Kuala Lumpur.. I desperately wanted to get accepted.. Since we live in Pahang, two states away, I decided to go there by bus.. My mum being her usual worrywort self,said it was not sAfe for me to take the 5 hours bus trip alone and insisted on coming alone...

I had never been a morning person and wasn't too happy about getting up at 7 a.m on the day of the interview.. As soon as we boarded the bus, I just plopped down onto a window seat and turned my back to my mum.. She knew what i was like and sat down behind me without saying a word.. As the bus pulled onto the highway, drowsiness began to take over and i was asleep in no time...

Not long afterwards, I was awakened by the pitter-patter of rain on the window.. I kept my eyes closed- it allowed me time to think and just relax.. MY head was lolling to the left, close to my lovely mum.. Then, just as i was about to open my eyes, I felt her hand caressing my cheek.. That really threw me off.. I squeezed my eyes tighter,not knowing what to expect next.....

I heard my murmur,"I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...".. aND then it came a wet kiss, tinged with the familiar feeling of the expensive DIOR lipstick, on my cheek...

I was stunned.. As tears welled in my eyes, I turned to the other side to prevent her from seeing them.. I slowly opened my eyes and stared out of the window, gazing at the trees whizzing past on the highway.. The lump in my throat just kept growing and growing....
I practically had to force it down to prevent my mum from hearing my sob...

Never in all my life, did i expect such a gesture from my "colder than stone"mum.. It made me realise that she did love me, even though she never made a big show of it.. Instead, she demonstrated her feelings through all the title things she did, like taking time off work to accompony me all the way to my interview..

I did not think I could face her without bowling my eyes out.. However, With all of the emotional strength i could muster, I turned towards her.. Her eyes were closed and her mouth was slightly open.. As i gazed at her face, peppered with wrinkles and lines that showed her age,I realised at that point that i was looking at my mother in a whole new light..

Then, as if my stare had awakened her from her slumber, her eyes fluttered open and she turned to me..What,? Do I have something on my face..?? Aiyo! Why are your eyes so puffy? Is it allergies again,?? I told you a thousand times to bring your medication.. You never listen..."

I held back asmile as I listened to her go on and on.. For once,I was not irritated or annoyed by what she said..It was just her way..

The interview went well.. and i was accepted in the university.. When my mother comes to visit, she fuses about my clothes,my room and just about everything else... It can still get on my nerves , but then I think back to that moment on the bus and the ill feelings melt away..

I finally, understand that all she does is out of love, and that means more to me than a wet DIOR kiss....

laskar pelangi~my favourite song~

mimpi adalah kunci
untuk kita menaklukkan dunia
berlarilah tanpa lelah
sampai engkau meraihnya

laskar pelangi takkan terikat waktu
bebaskan mimpimu di angkasa
warna bintang di jiwa

menarilah dan terus tertawa
walau dunia tak seindah surga
bersyukurlah pada Yang Kuasa
cinta kita di dunia selamanya

cinta kepada hidup
memberikan senyuman abadi
walau hidup kadang tak adil
tapi cinta lengkapi kita
laskar pelangi takkan terikat waktu
jangan berhenti mewarnai
jutaan mimpi di bumi

laskar pelangi takkan terikat waktu..

..melangkah ke UiTM..

ASSALAMUALAIKUM.

actually,disini sy ingin menceritakan pengalaman sy melangkah ke sebuah universiti, iaitu UITM, machang....

sy n family ke sana coz nk hntar abang sy daftar ari sbtu baru ni.. he,he..

sy rase excited sgt coz sblum ni mane ad pengalaman mcm ni.. ni first time pegi uni..(isy33)

dlm kul 7.45 pagi dah bertolak.. maklumlah, rumah kat k.b nk pegi machang, boleh kire jauh jgakla...=)

tekejut jgak tngok abg sy pg tu..he3 .. yer la sblum ni mane pnah die pkai tie,beju kemeja...

baru ku tahu, ok jgak mamat ni..he3(hatiku brkata)...

bile sampai kat sane, dah pnjang gak kereta berderet kat pintu utama... mujurla dtng awal..

kalau tak,berjanggut la nak tunggu,.. ala,imagine kalau jam kat jln... isy2..

wow!! besar banget UiTM machang ni(ungkapn prtama bile tgok uitm)..

atas bukit plak tu.. betapa nyamannya udra kat sane..

lpas tu,abg sy pun pegi la daftar n kiteorg pun tunggu kat bwah khemah yg disediakn...

sambil menunggu, sambil memerhati orng kat sekekliling..he2..

ya allah, mcm2 ragam sy jumpe.. ad 2 yg ok, n ad jgak yg ko.. isy2..

lpas je daftar, trus pegi tgok bilik n kemas2.. satu blik 3 owng; abng sy n 2 orng lg tu bdak johor..

memang kebetulan!! n satu lg kebetulan, dua2 orng tu course same iaitu; art n design.. isy3..

abng sy plak ambik statistic.. (eh,mcm tajuk dlm subjek maths plak)... =)

ala,nk buat mcm mane dh jodoh 2 orng tu..dah la sbilik, sama course plak tuh..syukur2!

perut pun dah lapar ni.. so, kte pun g la makan nasi kat restoran berdekatan.. alhamdulillah,kenyang.....

jlan pun dah mula jam.. dats mean,time tu, kereta bnyk sgat/.. so, x bleh blik la lg maknanya...

sy dan adik g jlan2.. tngok pemandangan dari atas bukit.. cantik sangat.. bile lg nk tngok kan,??

lpas tu, ibuku mahu pergi ke bandar machang kjap, nk beli barang..

n pegi balik UiTM coz nk hntar barang kt abg sy.. lpas tu, kiteorng pun balik dgn keletihan yg amat sangat...

erghh,besok sekolah!! letih sangat.. dah la sampai rumah dlm kul 4 ptng..

sabar2!! mlm 2, memng tidur awal drpd biase.. zzzz..

>tapi,ini lah antara pengalaman yg manis dlm hidup sy.. ALHAMDULILLAH..

walaupun universiti machang, ia adalah satu gudang ilmu yg bleh kite banggakan.. tul x,??

nanti 2011 plak, giliran sy plak utk melangkah lebih jauh drpd biase.. harap2 cita2 yg sy impikan akan trcpai..

INSYAALLAH.. so,doakanlah kejayaan saya.. AMEEN.. !!

wasalam..